10:46am Friday February 13th – Dear diary, I almost had a relapse this morning. I promptly ported my plethora of open Google Chrome tabs to Firefox, only to realize that with every newly opened Firefox window my homepage Google was staring me down face to face. I quickly entered bing.com into the search bar, carefully typing the url as to not evoke an unwanted Google search on “bin.gcom” or some other mistyped url. Only moments later did I realize how close I was from utter failure, one little character could make all the difference. A simple period holding all the power within it’s little pixelated blackness. Dear diary, I’m scared. This is my first entry, it will certainly not be the last. Lord help us.
3:14pm Friday February 13th – Dear diary, I can’t bring myself to turn my back on the amazing inspiration contained within my open Youtube tabs. I was finger twitches away from yet again another relapse. An opened Youtube page, lying dormant, one click from being watched. My self control is dwindling and my mental stability is not far behind.
3:17pm Friday February 13 – Dear diary, Bing is terrible. I can hear the colorful ‘Os’ of the Google logo calling my name. Whiispeerrrrrss echo in the halls….The sweet overtones of the network giant have been hard to overcome.
3:18pm Friday February 13 – Dear diary, Bing is still terrible. TO HELL WITH YOU GOOGLE ! ABSTINENCE IS THE ONLY WAY!
3:23pm Friday February13 – Dear diary, I am being taunted. “Get to Google Faster. Switch your default search engine to Google.” is what the beautifully styled blue banner read. I shielded my eyes from the downright fallacy implied by the enticing blue text. Only time will tell if Google’s public projection is terrible prevarication or not. 6 days, 152 hours, 9147 minuets, 548863 seconds…but who’s counting.
3:46pm Friday February 13 – Dear diary, I sent an email to my mother using no other server than Google’s Gmail. I have failed you.
5:23pm Friday February 13 – Dear diary, I checked my Gmail. I knowingly broke the rules! I COULDN’T HELP IT! *Sheds tear* *Shows remorse*. I’ll be stronger next time! DAMN YOU GOOOGGGLLLEEEEEE!
5:52pm Friday February 13 – Dear diary, I clicked a link not knowing it would bring me to Youtube’s Googley lair. I continued to watch the video. I’m a filthy human.
6:38pm Friday February 13 – Dear diary, all of KhanAcademy videos are hosted through Youtube. I had to watch some. I HAD TO DO IT! IT HAD TO BE DONE! I’ve failed again. This has been my fourth failure of the day.
5:27pm Sunday February 15 – Youtube access.
5:09pm Monday February 15 – Youtube access.
2:34am Tuesday February 17 – Youtube access.
3:56pm Tuesday February 17 – Youtube access.
1:39pm Thursday February 19 – Dear diary, ‘Youtube’ and it’s fiery red logo have bested me again!
Reflection:
Regardless of the comical (or not) quality the above entry possesses, this exercise has raised some very important and meaningful questions. To name only a select few: How much do we (as a society) depend on the connective service of the internet? What will it mean if the internet becomes run/owned by several large corporations? How will this affect society?/The way we share information? Who owns the information we share? How does the monopolization of the internet affect the way everyday users interact online? Does that interaction affect our real world social interactions as well? Many of these questions have been touched upon in class discussion and as you could imagine, most of them don’t have clear cut/well defined answers.
The important thing to remember is that we are talking about these topics, thinking about them, and becoming aware. A well informed society holds much more power than an ignorant one. The more naive a society is to the forces working against them, the more susceptible they become to the dangers of power hungry network giants (google). “These days, whether you are online or not, it is easy for people to end up unsure if they are closer together or further apart” – (Turkle, Alone together pg24) Turkle hints upon the idea that unaware users are becoming increasingly more disconnected as the internet grows. This is in part, due to the social shroud big companies like google have created, hiding their internal workings from the general public. These companies are making it very difficult to abstain from everyday use, thus creating an inherent dependency that nearly everyone with internet access is experiencing . “The technology has become like a phantom limb…it’s so much a part of them”-(Turkle, “Alone again” pg26). The danger here is not so much the technology, but the lack of understanding and the ‘blindness’ our society is experiencing. This exercise has helped me step back and realize how much I depend on a service (google). The exercise has raised questions I wouldn’t normally think about, it has helped me become more aware, and has helped me mentally break away from the zombified network based society we have become a part of.